Well, I think the days of me being able to eat what I want and do what I want are OVER! The past few days have been awful. I have what I think is a cold or flu, but now, it is something different. MY SKIN LITERALLY HURTS!!! It's throbbing. I told my husband that it feels like little daggers are stabbing me. The sheets hurt on my skin. I mentioned it to my mom just now and she said Fibromyalgia. I typed my skin hurting on the internet and one of the first things that came up was Fibromyalgia. My husband doesn't want me to self-diagnose, but I really feel like this may be what is going on. I have been down in the bed since Friday. It's been rough. Fortunately, my husband has been wonderful and taking care of the girls, but tomorrow, he has to go back to work, so I have to get better. I will call my dr.'s office and try to set up an appt. for Thursday. Hopefully, the symptoms will have abated by them. If so, I will cancel the doctor's appt. If it is still a problem, I will go to the appt. I really hope this isn't the problem. Hopefully it is just a bad cold or something that is affecting my body differently. Only thing is some of the symptoms like body aches and sleep problems and pms and fatigue are all problems that I have been dealing with lately and they are symptoms of Fibro.
I have been dealing with alot of stress lately and maybe this is my bodies way to tell me I have to chill. Hopefully that is all that it is. Part of me just wants to say - Buck Up and Deal With It! It's just really hard. I have just had so many things thrown at me lately. I just want to be a good wife and mother. That's what I really want.
I really think that the stress has not helped one bit, but KK I think messed up things a bit. I really do. I am so glad that I lost the weight, but so many things have been happening lately. I mean, I am only 32 for crying out loud. Never sick. I've never even been in the hospital with the exception of having the girls. I have really got to take better care of my body and nurse it back to health. From what I read, the PMS and the Fibro can be helped by controlling my diet and my guess is the needs are similar. I've really got to get this under control for my health's sake. The days of eating junk and whatever I want I think are over. I really do. I want to eat better anyways, but now I think that I HAVE to! That is the way I am anyways, I only get things in order when I have no choice. Other than that, it doesn't get done.
I promised my hubby, I wouldn't do anymore research to try to self-diagnose myself, so I won't be doing that. I will just try to get to the doctor on Thursday. I really hope this is all over by then because it really is a painful and quite uncomfortable feeling. I can barely lift up my daughters. We will see.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Friday, March 28, 2008
Lumpy, Grumpy and Frumpy
Yeah, that is how I am feeling today. It's TOTM, so needless to say, I am not feeling pretty. Matter of fact, I am eating everything in sight and some. It's really something. At first it seemed like this TOTM was going better. I had a bit of a hard time emotionally on Sunday, but then Stan and I went out to dinner and a movie and it seemed to be going okay. But today, I wasnt feeling so good and neither was my baby, Mia. I think me not feeling so well, plus my baby not doing so good I let things get to me. I definitely felt overwhelmed today. I think I just feel like I really need a getaway. I feel like I am always on the go or have to be responsible for something. There is never a down day when I am not responsible for anyone or anything. Not even for a few hours. It's rough. I think that may be a large part of what is going on. There is just too much going on all of the time. I guess that's life. It's just getting a little old.
I know that Stan and I are supposed to be gong to Vegas at the end of May, but right now that just seems so far away. It's like I needed the vacation yesterday and it is 2 MONTHS AWAY!!! I know how my days just meld together, those 2 months will be here and gone before I know it, but still, I feel like I need a holiday....NOW!!!
I'm just going to close this day and hope for the best tomorrow, although, based on how I ate today, I will be even Lumpier, Grumpier and Frumpier. :(
I know that Stan and I are supposed to be gong to Vegas at the end of May, but right now that just seems so far away. It's like I needed the vacation yesterday and it is 2 MONTHS AWAY!!! I know how my days just meld together, those 2 months will be here and gone before I know it, but still, I feel like I need a holiday....NOW!!!
I'm just going to close this day and hope for the best tomorrow, although, based on how I ate today, I will be even Lumpier, Grumpier and Frumpier. :(
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
The Dealio
Ewwww-Weee, today is definitely a FAT day. I looked at myself in the mirror and I was like - "Not a flattering outfit." When I have my fat days, I always wear, big sweaters and pants, all black and that is what I have on today. I know that I have put on some pounds. I wonder when I get to goal, will I still have fat days. I mean, if I get down to 140 and then if for some reason, I gain 10 lbs, will I still feel fat? Probably so. I mean, in the old days of 241, I betcha I would give my right arm to be 180 anything. I guess it is all about perspective and how you feel at the moment.
Well, once I get through today, (I hate the Tues/Wednesday stretch), I can hopefully get on the ball with my plan. The fickle girl that I am, I am still trying to figure out what I am going to do. I mean, I love Michelle's plan, because it clean eating and I can eat dinner with my family. I couldn't stand the months of eating something different from everyone else while doing KK. But at the same time, I really miss alot of the Atkins recipes. Sometimes clean eating doesn't equal tasty. Probably because I haven't found the great recipes yet. I used to feel the same way about Atkins actually, that was until I found Linda. She opened up my eyes to how good you can eat on Atkins and now I have a hard time leaving. I just have to get everything together, make it appetizing and stick to it.
Rachel from Friends wears some of the cutest clothes and so now as an incentive to myself, I have decided that I am going to get a Rachel dress. There is this cute style dress that Rachel wore when she was in Las Vegas and since Stan and I are going to Las Vegas the end of May, my plan is to buy and wear a Rachel dress when we go. If I get started on April 1 and do everything right like I am supposed to, I can make quite a change in the way that I look by then. That will give me about 8 weeks. I know that I can accomplish alot in that time.
That is what I think is so frustrating to me. I pretty much know exactly what I need to do in order to achieve my goals, but it is just so hard to get started and then stay on track the whole time. It's so easy to waiver. I think that part of it is while I am not happy with the size that I am now, I am not completely grossed out, so I don't have the same impetus as I had before to get things moving. My main motivation was to lose weight so that I wouldn't be all fat and a poor example to my girls. Well, I am no longer FAT per se, so I don't have that same motivation. I have got to find it somewhere within myself to be motivated. I have enlisted the help of my hubby. He helped me a great deal during KK. Many times when I was discouraged and ready to throw in the towel, my hubby would remind me of what I was shooting for. Only when it became clear how dangerous the plan was did he encourage me to back away. So, with my hubby's help, a plan and personal motivation from within, I am almost positive that I can stick to this. My hubby wants to eat healthier to, so it will help us to both look great in Vegas! Yeah!!!
Well, once I get through today, (I hate the Tues/Wednesday stretch), I can hopefully get on the ball with my plan. The fickle girl that I am, I am still trying to figure out what I am going to do. I mean, I love Michelle's plan, because it clean eating and I can eat dinner with my family. I couldn't stand the months of eating something different from everyone else while doing KK. But at the same time, I really miss alot of the Atkins recipes. Sometimes clean eating doesn't equal tasty. Probably because I haven't found the great recipes yet. I used to feel the same way about Atkins actually, that was until I found Linda. She opened up my eyes to how good you can eat on Atkins and now I have a hard time leaving. I just have to get everything together, make it appetizing and stick to it.
Rachel from Friends wears some of the cutest clothes and so now as an incentive to myself, I have decided that I am going to get a Rachel dress. There is this cute style dress that Rachel wore when she was in Las Vegas and since Stan and I are going to Las Vegas the end of May, my plan is to buy and wear a Rachel dress when we go. If I get started on April 1 and do everything right like I am supposed to, I can make quite a change in the way that I look by then. That will give me about 8 weeks. I know that I can accomplish alot in that time.
That is what I think is so frustrating to me. I pretty much know exactly what I need to do in order to achieve my goals, but it is just so hard to get started and then stay on track the whole time. It's so easy to waiver. I think that part of it is while I am not happy with the size that I am now, I am not completely grossed out, so I don't have the same impetus as I had before to get things moving. My main motivation was to lose weight so that I wouldn't be all fat and a poor example to my girls. Well, I am no longer FAT per se, so I don't have that same motivation. I have got to find it somewhere within myself to be motivated. I have enlisted the help of my hubby. He helped me a great deal during KK. Many times when I was discouraged and ready to throw in the towel, my hubby would remind me of what I was shooting for. Only when it became clear how dangerous the plan was did he encourage me to back away. So, with my hubby's help, a plan and personal motivation from within, I am almost positive that I can stick to this. My hubby wants to eat healthier to, so it will help us to both look great in Vegas! Yeah!!!
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Success!!!
Well, I must say that De-Clutter month has been a success so far. We have cleared out so much clutter. We had boxes of STUFF for so long and it has all been cleared out and that is wonderful. At the beginning of the month, we made little headway and my hubby said something to the effect that I guess not much is going to get done, but I am happy to say that over the past week, we have been working hard and much has been done. It makes me feel good because some days go by and I feel like I haven't accomplished a single thing. Watching the girls all day and doing not much of anything else makes for a very unfufilled day. I mean, I know they are my daughters and I love them to pieces, but it is important that your day just not go by and nothing else gets done. So, I am so happy that Stan and I just got it done no matter what. Our living room and dining room area will look much better than it has in a long time and that feels good. Afterall, it is the first room that you see when you walk in the house. I think it is important for those rooms to look nice and clutter-free.
The type of person that I am is if I challenge myself to something, I am going to try my hardest to make it work. May not in the end, but it won't be for lack of trying so I knew that the personal challenge to myself would get me going. My hubby is the type of person that will get going once I get going, so once I got started, he really got into it as well. We are a pretty good team if I should say so myself. :)
Dietwise, hmmm...not so good. Still working it all out. Still plan to be a Buffmother this summer, just getting a bit of a late start. I know that planning is crucial and I am going to take the next several days to plan everything out. I have to or it just won't happen. I know this! Stan and I are supposed to be going to Las Vegas at the end of May, so I am really hoping to get things started for both of us on April 1. That will give me like 8 weeks and Buffmother says to allow around 8 weeks of doing everything right to really see a change. So, what I PLAN to do is plan out my meals and workouts for the next 8 weeks. Plan to do everything right and see where it goes. I really think that I can accomplish great things because I know how to eat and how to workout. I just have to make myself do it. I am quite confident that I can get great results. I get so tired of starting over, but no matter what I am not giving up. I will be a BUFFMOTHER! I am going to be a wonderful example for my girls and a HOT wife! :)
The type of person that I am is if I challenge myself to something, I am going to try my hardest to make it work. May not in the end, but it won't be for lack of trying so I knew that the personal challenge to myself would get me going. My hubby is the type of person that will get going once I get going, so once I got started, he really got into it as well. We are a pretty good team if I should say so myself. :)
Dietwise, hmmm...not so good. Still working it all out. Still plan to be a Buffmother this summer, just getting a bit of a late start. I know that planning is crucial and I am going to take the next several days to plan everything out. I have to or it just won't happen. I know this! Stan and I are supposed to be going to Las Vegas at the end of May, so I am really hoping to get things started for both of us on April 1. That will give me like 8 weeks and Buffmother says to allow around 8 weeks of doing everything right to really see a change. So, what I PLAN to do is plan out my meals and workouts for the next 8 weeks. Plan to do everything right and see where it goes. I really think that I can accomplish great things because I know how to eat and how to workout. I just have to make myself do it. I am quite confident that I can get great results. I get so tired of starting over, but no matter what I am not giving up. I will be a BUFFMOTHER! I am going to be a wonderful example for my girls and a HOT wife! :)
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Oy Vey! It's a New Day!
Well, the past few days have been a blur and not a good blur. Trying my best to stay on target, but keep falling short. That is okay because today is a new day and I have a PLAN! Yesterday was my day off and I actually sat down and scheduled out each day so that I can get everything done. My life is just waaay to busy to go without a plan. I have known this for quite some time, but just hadn't taken the time to do it or I would get started, then get sidetracked and it ended up never getting done. So I am happy to say that I completed it yesterday and for the most part, I have been sticking to it.
One of the things that I have changed which I think will help a great deal is that I will cook on my days off for the days that are long days. Tuesdays and Wednesday's are extremely long days for me. I get up around 6:00 a.m. to get to work and then work a 10 hour shift and then come home try to cook dinner, go to the bookstudy and then finally I am home for the evening around 8:45 p.m. That's a long day! Then on Wednesday, I essentially do the same thing except this morning I have to get up around 5:15 a.m and I have to get the kids up and take them to the sitter's and be at work by 7:00 a.m. On Wednesday evening, I don't have a meeting, but the wise person that I am, I decided to take a sewing class that starts at 7:00 p.m. So I am at sewing class on Wednesday evenings from 7:00 p.m. - 9:00 p.m. Another really long day. It stands to reason that cooking on those days is just adding to the pot of an already hectic day. So, I have decided that I will cook on Monday's for Tuesday and Wednesday. Now yesterday, I only cooked for tonight because I don't have sewing class this Wednesday because of Spring Break, but that is how I will proceed the rest of the course. I think there is only 2 more weeks beyond this week and I WILL NOT be taking anymore courses on Wednesdays. Unless it is just a 1 night course or something I REALLY, REALLY want to take. I won't do that again. The Tuesday and Wednesday crunch is just too much for me right now.
I also have planned out the days that I will workout. I have my Success Journal together so that I can log in the meals that I eat and the workouts that I complete. Also tracks my mood and how I am feeling. Since this is going to be completely different for me, I don't think I am going to weigh but 1x per month or so. I mean really, if I am lifting weights and trying to lose weight at the same time, the scale will be one of the worse measuring sticks EVER! I will take my measurements and try on my clothes, but ask hubby to hide the scale except on specified days.
I really want to be a BUFFMOTHER! Be a good strong example for my daughters. If I can get all that I need to together, I KNOW that I will feel much better than I have been physically and emotionally. Lately, I have just been feeling all over the place and not able to focus. Hasn't been fun. It makes it so that no matter how much or how bad I want anything, I am still unable to attain and that is a lousy feeling. Makes me feel weak and that is the exact opposite of how I want to feel.
I am confident that I will get there. I would like to give myself at least 4 months. I think it takes at least 90 days to see the fruits of your labor and a month beyond that to really see what is going on. I packed up my lunch and everything for today last night, which I also think is important. The goal is to try to take care of things on my days off, not to the point where I am stressed on my days off, but so that I can eliminate the smaller things on my really long days. Also, I am going to enlist the help of my hubby more even though he is stressed to. He is great with throwing in the laundry, so I may ask him to do a load of laundry on his day off which is today. It can be better and it WILL be better. I will keep tweaking and keep working it out until it is.
One of the things that I have changed which I think will help a great deal is that I will cook on my days off for the days that are long days. Tuesdays and Wednesday's are extremely long days for me. I get up around 6:00 a.m. to get to work and then work a 10 hour shift and then come home try to cook dinner, go to the bookstudy and then finally I am home for the evening around 8:45 p.m. That's a long day! Then on Wednesday, I essentially do the same thing except this morning I have to get up around 5:15 a.m and I have to get the kids up and take them to the sitter's and be at work by 7:00 a.m. On Wednesday evening, I don't have a meeting, but the wise person that I am, I decided to take a sewing class that starts at 7:00 p.m. So I am at sewing class on Wednesday evenings from 7:00 p.m. - 9:00 p.m. Another really long day. It stands to reason that cooking on those days is just adding to the pot of an already hectic day. So, I have decided that I will cook on Monday's for Tuesday and Wednesday. Now yesterday, I only cooked for tonight because I don't have sewing class this Wednesday because of Spring Break, but that is how I will proceed the rest of the course. I think there is only 2 more weeks beyond this week and I WILL NOT be taking anymore courses on Wednesdays. Unless it is just a 1 night course or something I REALLY, REALLY want to take. I won't do that again. The Tuesday and Wednesday crunch is just too much for me right now.
I also have planned out the days that I will workout. I have my Success Journal together so that I can log in the meals that I eat and the workouts that I complete. Also tracks my mood and how I am feeling. Since this is going to be completely different for me, I don't think I am going to weigh but 1x per month or so. I mean really, if I am lifting weights and trying to lose weight at the same time, the scale will be one of the worse measuring sticks EVER! I will take my measurements and try on my clothes, but ask hubby to hide the scale except on specified days.
I really want to be a BUFFMOTHER! Be a good strong example for my daughters. If I can get all that I need to together, I KNOW that I will feel much better than I have been physically and emotionally. Lately, I have just been feeling all over the place and not able to focus. Hasn't been fun. It makes it so that no matter how much or how bad I want anything, I am still unable to attain and that is a lousy feeling. Makes me feel weak and that is the exact opposite of how I want to feel.
I am confident that I will get there. I would like to give myself at least 4 months. I think it takes at least 90 days to see the fruits of your labor and a month beyond that to really see what is going on. I packed up my lunch and everything for today last night, which I also think is important. The goal is to try to take care of things on my days off, not to the point where I am stressed on my days off, but so that I can eliminate the smaller things on my really long days. Also, I am going to enlist the help of my hubby more even though he is stressed to. He is great with throwing in the laundry, so I may ask him to do a load of laundry on his day off which is today. It can be better and it WILL be better. I will keep tweaking and keep working it out until it is.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
If I don't plan, Plan to Fail!
I have really got to get my schedule together. On Saturday's, I am supposed to fit in a dance workout before going to work. Nope, didn't happen and it probably never will happen if I don't plan a specific time. After field service this morning, we came straight home. Cleaned up the girls and fed them lunch. By the time I got them down for a nap, which they never actually went to sleep, it was about 12:15 p.m. Well, I have to leave for work at 1:00 p.m., so no workout. Saturday's workouts are basically to get me moving, no weights, but still. I really need to get this down. I know for a fact that if I truly want to transform my body, I am going to have to buckle down and get it right. I mean, it's not like after the 10 weeks are over, I plan to stop, but since this is a contest that so many of us are doing, I would love to see a dramatic difference. Geez, I haven't even gotten around to get my before pictures taken. Monday will be a week completely gone. Sometimes I just have to shake my head and sigh because there is just sooooo much, toooo much actually. I think what I get caught up in is I get frazzled because there is so much to do that nothing really gets done. Like this month has been De-Clutter month and while I have started on my living room and dining room, there is still soooo much to be done. We are already at the 15th of the month and I really wanted to have those rooms done by the end of the month.
Yesterday, we had to shop for larger shoes for Mia so that took a few stores. Mia flipped out because she has some type of major fear of people that she does not know, so that turned out to be more than it should have been. Then we went to a few other stores and then guess what everyone was hungry. So we went to one of the worst places for a high protein lower carb person - Fazoli's. So as you can probably guess, not the best foods for my plan for dinner, which is completely frustrating. But the thing about it is everyday I start it as a new day. I know that this is the way that I want to eat and so I never think, oh just forget it tomorrow. I start the next day on plan and will keep doing that. I want to be a Buffmother. I want to be a good and healthy example to my daughters, not just physically, but spiritually and emotionally as well. I really think that being a Buffmother encompasses balance and having it together. No one is perfect, but when I have all of this planned out and sticking to that plan, I will have it together and will be the example that I want to be for my daughters. I have no doubt that I will get there, but it is just going to take some time.
Well, today is another day. So far, so good. I have taken my supplements. I have done very well with the proteins and greens. I've just got so many things on my mind right now that emotionally I am a wreck, but I do believe that before the end of this year comes around, things will be much better. Emotionally, I am at that point where I am cleaning a room that hasn't been cleaned for years and junk has just been piling up. Now you know when you clean a messy, it looks much worse before it starts looking better. That's just where I am right now. It's a rough period, but soon if I keep working on it, it will get better. I am sure of it.
Yesterday, we had to shop for larger shoes for Mia so that took a few stores. Mia flipped out because she has some type of major fear of people that she does not know, so that turned out to be more than it should have been. Then we went to a few other stores and then guess what everyone was hungry. So we went to one of the worst places for a high protein lower carb person - Fazoli's. So as you can probably guess, not the best foods for my plan for dinner, which is completely frustrating. But the thing about it is everyday I start it as a new day. I know that this is the way that I want to eat and so I never think, oh just forget it tomorrow. I start the next day on plan and will keep doing that. I want to be a Buffmother. I want to be a good and healthy example to my daughters, not just physically, but spiritually and emotionally as well. I really think that being a Buffmother encompasses balance and having it together. No one is perfect, but when I have all of this planned out and sticking to that plan, I will have it together and will be the example that I want to be for my daughters. I have no doubt that I will get there, but it is just going to take some time.
Well, today is another day. So far, so good. I have taken my supplements. I have done very well with the proteins and greens. I've just got so many things on my mind right now that emotionally I am a wreck, but I do believe that before the end of this year comes around, things will be much better. Emotionally, I am at that point where I am cleaning a room that hasn't been cleaned for years and junk has just been piling up. Now you know when you clean a messy, it looks much worse before it starts looking better. That's just where I am right now. It's a rough period, but soon if I keep working on it, it will get better. I am sure of it.
Friday, March 14, 2008
Lower Body workout - DONE!
I just completed my workout for the day. I was really in the mood for an exercise video, so I decided to do JV's Speedy Nonstop workout for the Lower Body. I don't think I have done that one before. It sure is speedy and nonstop, but I definitely felt like I got in a good workout. I added on two sets of the Stomach Zapping Abs. I went through all of my JV workouts and this workout seemed to match what I should be doing during the Buffing stage.
Today, I tried to pace myself with the weights, so for the first set, I used 5's. The second set 12's and for the 3rd set 15's. Buffmother encourages us to make a personal best in each workout, so next time, I may do my 2nd and 3rd set as 15's and 18's or 15's and 20's. We will see. Challenge=Change. I was thinking about it today and the fact that if I had never come across Buffmother, I may have alway kept with my 8's 10's and 12's. I may have never moved up to the heavier weights and that explains why I never have had the body that I have wanted. I mean, I have heard before to lift heavy as you can manage, but still never stepped it up. Now I know how important it is to really challenge myself with weights. I am in no danger of looking like a female Arnold. Women just can't do that at least not the average woman. Besides I don't have the time or interest needed to even get close to being female Arnold.
Everyone has been so encouraging at the RR. Just to keep on steppin on and I have appreciated that tremendously. I have been right on track. I am drinking my protein shake right now. I am going to do this and look great in 10 weeks!
Today, I tried to pace myself with the weights, so for the first set, I used 5's. The second set 12's and for the 3rd set 15's. Buffmother encourages us to make a personal best in each workout, so next time, I may do my 2nd and 3rd set as 15's and 18's or 15's and 20's. We will see. Challenge=Change. I was thinking about it today and the fact that if I had never come across Buffmother, I may have alway kept with my 8's 10's and 12's. I may have never moved up to the heavier weights and that explains why I never have had the body that I have wanted. I mean, I have heard before to lift heavy as you can manage, but still never stepped it up. Now I know how important it is to really challenge myself with weights. I am in no danger of looking like a female Arnold. Women just can't do that at least not the average woman. Besides I don't have the time or interest needed to even get close to being female Arnold.
Everyone has been so encouraging at the RR. Just to keep on steppin on and I have appreciated that tremendously. I have been right on track. I am drinking my protein shake right now. I am going to do this and look great in 10 weeks!
Hiccup, but Moving On
Yep, I messed up yesterday. Just a bad day. I felt it almost as soon as I woke up and couldn't shake it. Not quite sure why. Stan got off early and so we spent the day together. I think that alot of it is the stresses. I hate that I allowed emotions to get in the way, but I did. Nonetheless it does not deter me from my target. I will dust myself off and try again. I can't let a bad day get between me and my goal of being healthy and fit. It is too important to me.
I call it a hiccup because when I think of a hiccup, I think of an annoying thing that comes out of nowhere. After a little bit they pass and you forget you even had it. Alot of people say they happen if you take in too much air. That may have been what I did in a sense. Just taking on too much being overwhelmed. But yesterday is over and just like a hiccup, I am forgetting that it ever happened. I am moving on and starting today as a new day.
I am still sooo excited about the plan and definitely plan to reach my fitness goals. A Buffmother over at the RR posted a few pictures of a lady before and afters after 10 weeks. Wow, she really looked amazing. I have no doubt that the women may have been blessed with good genes, but it certainly gave me hope that if I stay on track I can certainly accomplish great things over the next 10 weeks. If that is the only hiccup that I have over the next 10 weeks, I am glad that it happened so early in the process. Maybe I needed to get it out my system. In any event, I am ready to get on track and become a BUFFMOTHER!!! Yeah!!!!!
I call it a hiccup because when I think of a hiccup, I think of an annoying thing that comes out of nowhere. After a little bit they pass and you forget you even had it. Alot of people say they happen if you take in too much air. That may have been what I did in a sense. Just taking on too much being overwhelmed. But yesterday is over and just like a hiccup, I am forgetting that it ever happened. I am moving on and starting today as a new day.
I am still sooo excited about the plan and definitely plan to reach my fitness goals. A Buffmother over at the RR posted a few pictures of a lady before and afters after 10 weeks. Wow, she really looked amazing. I have no doubt that the women may have been blessed with good genes, but it certainly gave me hope that if I stay on track I can certainly accomplish great things over the next 10 weeks. If that is the only hiccup that I have over the next 10 weeks, I am glad that it happened so early in the process. Maybe I needed to get it out my system. In any event, I am ready to get on track and become a BUFFMOTHER!!! Yeah!!!!!
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
I'm Lovin' It!
Well yesterday was Day 2, but I felt pretty po most of the day and when I got home it was dreadful. I ended up going to bed at 9:00 p.m, because I was so sick feeling and exhausted. I had that terrible feeling of headache and stomach sick that I get alot of times around TOTM. I am nowhere near TOTM right now, so a little perplexed as to why I felt so bad. I feel pretty good today and so happy that I did not use feeling bad yesterday as an opportunity to go off plan. So far, the plan is pretty easy to follow. When I stepped on the scale this morning, I was down to 184.4, so I was happy about that. Down 4.8 lbs in 2 days. I thought that was the magic that only low carbing could bring, but I guess not. I am surely not complaining and happy to see it!
I know it is only the 3rd day, but I am feeling very excited about the new WOE that I have started. The Rally Room over at Buffmother is AWESOME!!! There are so many of us that are participating in this contest and it is just so encouraging. Also, when you see examples like Buffmother herself and so many others that have followed her plan before me that have changed so much, it's like "I want that for myself!!" The physique that the ladies have over there is just what I am aspiring to. Some a little more buff than I want to be, but still. I feel like I am in the right environment because it is a forum just for women that are mothers that want to look and feel better and be a good example to their children. Not satisfied with the label "soccer mom". Not settling by the naysayers that say "After you have a baby, your body will never look good again". Buffmother and so many other ladies there prove otherwise and that is so encouraging.
I am so thankful that I have already lost the bulk of my weight. I realize that I am no longer 166, but who knows what the ultimate # may be since I am lifting weights now. I know that I am not interested in being 125 lbs. Probably no longer 136 lbs. I think my old # of 147 may be a great place for me. I will just have to see how I feel. In the meantime, I have set a goal of losing 14.3 lbs over the next 10 weeks. That will put me at 174.9. Yep, I would like to get a tad below 175. He Hee Since I have already lost 4.8 of those pounds, I am very optimistic. If I do better great, if I don't I will be a little upset, but I know that I will have to look alot better. At least better than I do today. :)
I know it is only the 3rd day, but I am feeling very excited about the new WOE that I have started. The Rally Room over at Buffmother is AWESOME!!! There are so many of us that are participating in this contest and it is just so encouraging. Also, when you see examples like Buffmother herself and so many others that have followed her plan before me that have changed so much, it's like "I want that for myself!!" The physique that the ladies have over there is just what I am aspiring to. Some a little more buff than I want to be, but still. I feel like I am in the right environment because it is a forum just for women that are mothers that want to look and feel better and be a good example to their children. Not satisfied with the label "soccer mom". Not settling by the naysayers that say "After you have a baby, your body will never look good again". Buffmother and so many other ladies there prove otherwise and that is so encouraging.
I am so thankful that I have already lost the bulk of my weight. I realize that I am no longer 166, but who knows what the ultimate # may be since I am lifting weights now. I know that I am not interested in being 125 lbs. Probably no longer 136 lbs. I think my old # of 147 may be a great place for me. I will just have to see how I feel. In the meantime, I have set a goal of losing 14.3 lbs over the next 10 weeks. That will put me at 174.9. Yep, I would like to get a tad below 175. He Hee Since I have already lost 4.8 of those pounds, I am very optimistic. If I do better great, if I don't I will be a little upset, but I know that I will have to look alot better. At least better than I do today. :)
Monday, March 10, 2008
BBB Contest - Day 1
Whew! Today what a day! Alot got packed in today, but all in all today has been a SUCCESS!!! Let's see, I got up and ate breakfast with the girls ~ on plan of course~ and then later - THE WORKOUT!!!
Geez, Buffmother kicked my Heineken today. Buffmother Beginning Buffing workout. Phew! Buffmother really wants you to push the reps. You have to lift weights heavy enough that the last 2 reps feel impossible. I have lost alot of my strength, however, I feel that if I continue to work out this way and eat clean the way that I did today, I will be slammin' in 10 weeks or at least see a very dramatic difference.
It just feels right! I mean the way of eating and the workout regimen, just makes sense to me. It's exactly what I have been wanting to do. I am so glad that Michelle started this program and this contest because I really feel it will be the plan that will help me to meet my ultimate goal and I needed the motivation to get started. I love feeling strong and I love lifting weights and I love the fact that so much that Michelle writes about is exactly how I feel. The Rally Room rocks! There is just so much motivation there and so many other women that have the same goal of being fit and active and being a good example to their children and family.
My current workout plan is to workout 4 days per week. Since Tuesday and Wednesday are such awful days, I will not be able to workout on those days.
Monday - Weights
Thursday - Weights
Friday - Intervals
Saturday - Weights
I may have messed that up a little because I am supposed to do intervals at least 2x's/week or so I thought. I don't have it in front of me, so I don't remember exactly. I bought my new gadget a few weeks ago, the Gymboss. I have tried it yet, but it is supposed to be awesome for interval workouts. They really talk it up on my fitness forum, so I knew I had to give it a try. I will definitely post a review if I really like it. I think I read somewhere that if I write a good review publicly and let them know, I get a free Gymboss t-shirt or something. Kewl! Works for me!
So, I have to take one day at a time but I really feel pumped and ready to succeed. Now, while today went well overall, I did make some faux paus.
1) I didn't plan my meals out like I should have and when I put my food into Fitday, I only ate like 1000 calories. Yikes for that workout that I did today, that definitely was not enough calories. I really wanted my calories to be around 1500+, so I now see how important it is to plan in advance. Put it all in Fitday so that I know exactly what is going on.
2) I did a GREAT workout! My arms were like jelly afterward, so after a cooldown and stretch, I CRASHED! Completely forgot about my post workout shake. I thought about it about an hour after I finished my workout which is no good. Then to top it off, I forgot to add some fruit or something to my shake, so there were no real carbs.
I won't let myself get down about it. Michelle said that there is a learning curve to get everything down. I just have to have the determination to stick to the plan and eventually I am confident that everything will work out.
I really need to get to bed, but I didn't want to let the day end without posting how my first day went. I neglected to take my measurements or my pics today, but I will be sure to do that tomorrow. I was right about my weight. I figured that I was between 185-190 and I was. According to my new digital scale, my weight this morning was 189.2. I can't believe it, but I can. I just know where I am starting and going to go from there. Since I know that I won't lose like I used to while low carbing, I've set what I feel is a reasonable goal. I would like to lose 14 lbs over the next 10 weeks. According to Fitday, that is like 1.29 lb per week average. Even though I am lifting, I should hope that is attainable. Since I am not really sure, I will try on a pair of jeans that don't even have a chance of fitting and then keep trying them on over the next 10 weeks. I've got to have some measuring stick. It would be pretty much impossible to eat this way and workout this way without results. I definitely feel that I am on the right track.
Okay, now I am really going to get to bed. The day starts early tomorrow and keeps going until at least 9:00 p.m. tomorrow evening. Phew! Tired just thinking about it.
I have started many plans and I this is one of the only ones that I'm starting out so good and so positive. Definitely a good thing in my book. I am looking forward to the next 10 weeks!
Geez, Buffmother kicked my Heineken today. Buffmother Beginning Buffing workout. Phew! Buffmother really wants you to push the reps. You have to lift weights heavy enough that the last 2 reps feel impossible. I have lost alot of my strength, however, I feel that if I continue to work out this way and eat clean the way that I did today, I will be slammin' in 10 weeks or at least see a very dramatic difference.
It just feels right! I mean the way of eating and the workout regimen, just makes sense to me. It's exactly what I have been wanting to do. I am so glad that Michelle started this program and this contest because I really feel it will be the plan that will help me to meet my ultimate goal and I needed the motivation to get started. I love feeling strong and I love lifting weights and I love the fact that so much that Michelle writes about is exactly how I feel. The Rally Room rocks! There is just so much motivation there and so many other women that have the same goal of being fit and active and being a good example to their children and family.
My current workout plan is to workout 4 days per week. Since Tuesday and Wednesday are such awful days, I will not be able to workout on those days.
Monday - Weights
Thursday - Weights
Friday - Intervals
Saturday - Weights
I may have messed that up a little because I am supposed to do intervals at least 2x's/week or so I thought. I don't have it in front of me, so I don't remember exactly. I bought my new gadget a few weeks ago, the Gymboss. I have tried it yet, but it is supposed to be awesome for interval workouts. They really talk it up on my fitness forum, so I knew I had to give it a try. I will definitely post a review if I really like it. I think I read somewhere that if I write a good review publicly and let them know, I get a free Gymboss t-shirt or something. Kewl! Works for me!
So, I have to take one day at a time but I really feel pumped and ready to succeed. Now, while today went well overall, I did make some faux paus.
1) I didn't plan my meals out like I should have and when I put my food into Fitday, I only ate like 1000 calories. Yikes for that workout that I did today, that definitely was not enough calories. I really wanted my calories to be around 1500+, so I now see how important it is to plan in advance. Put it all in Fitday so that I know exactly what is going on.
2) I did a GREAT workout! My arms were like jelly afterward, so after a cooldown and stretch, I CRASHED! Completely forgot about my post workout shake. I thought about it about an hour after I finished my workout which is no good. Then to top it off, I forgot to add some fruit or something to my shake, so there were no real carbs.
I won't let myself get down about it. Michelle said that there is a learning curve to get everything down. I just have to have the determination to stick to the plan and eventually I am confident that everything will work out.
I really need to get to bed, but I didn't want to let the day end without posting how my first day went. I neglected to take my measurements or my pics today, but I will be sure to do that tomorrow. I was right about my weight. I figured that I was between 185-190 and I was. According to my new digital scale, my weight this morning was 189.2. I can't believe it, but I can. I just know where I am starting and going to go from there. Since I know that I won't lose like I used to while low carbing, I've set what I feel is a reasonable goal. I would like to lose 14 lbs over the next 10 weeks. According to Fitday, that is like 1.29 lb per week average. Even though I am lifting, I should hope that is attainable. Since I am not really sure, I will try on a pair of jeans that don't even have a chance of fitting and then keep trying them on over the next 10 weeks. I've got to have some measuring stick. It would be pretty much impossible to eat this way and workout this way without results. I definitely feel that I am on the right track.
Okay, now I am really going to get to bed. The day starts early tomorrow and keeps going until at least 9:00 p.m. tomorrow evening. Phew! Tired just thinking about it.
I have started many plans and I this is one of the only ones that I'm starting out so good and so positive. Definitely a good thing in my book. I am looking forward to the next 10 weeks!
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Looking forward to a Healthy New Beginning
I am psyched and ready to start Michelle's program on Monday. I am really hoping to stick to the plan and make a dramatic change in my body. I feel very soft and bloated these days, so it will be really, really nice to be hard and muscular. I am still working on trying to get all my meal plans together for at least 1 week in advance and possibly 2 weeks. I really feel that if I have everything planned and ready to go, it will help me to be more successful! It will really be amazing to see what I can truly accomplish in 10 weeks. I really plan to give it my all. It is cleaner eating and regular workout regimen.
I am glad that I didn't start Atkins and bumping off of that plan. I really want to see how Michelle's plan works on my body. I am sure that I am around 185-190 now. I am scared to see, but I will weigh myself Monday morning to find out. I bought a brand new digital scale and that will be what I will use throughout my 10 week plan. To get started, we need to weigh ourselves, take before pics and take measurements. I know that I start and stop so many times, but I really want to stick to this. I kinda feel like if I could stick to KK, virtually cheat free for 4.5 months, surely, I can stick to this plan for 10 weeks. I am not going to say that I will eat perfect for 10 weeks, but I will say that the plan is to put my all into it and to be successful. I would really like to be toned and in shape for shorts weather this summer. It is so important to me to be in good shape for my daughters. Having 2 daughters has really motivated me to get my act together in so many ways. I wonder if I had two 2 sons or even 1 boy and 1 girl would it be the same? I dunno. We don't plan to have anymore children, so it's likely that I will never know, but I do know one thing, those girls are the most precious things in the world to me and I want the best for them.
Buffmother calls it, Living with a LEGACY perspective and I just love the sound of that. In her book, she has an awesome example of how the decisions I make can have an effect not only on my daughters, but my grandchildren and generations after that. Physically, spiritually and emotionally the decisions that I make can have an effect on them. Thinking back, I really cannot remember my mother ever working out. That is something that kinda started with me. But working out consistently and being in good shape can be something that I pass on to my daughters and they can pass on to their and on and on, simply because I set the example. That is just so kewl to me and something that resonates with me on a very deep level. That is why I take it so seriously with the girls. I'm not perfect so I obviously can't do everything right, but realizing how my decisions affect the girls can be a real motivator to do my best.
Thanx Mya and Mia! Mommy loves you so much! You gave Mommy her life back. :)
I am glad that I didn't start Atkins and bumping off of that plan. I really want to see how Michelle's plan works on my body. I am sure that I am around 185-190 now. I am scared to see, but I will weigh myself Monday morning to find out. I bought a brand new digital scale and that will be what I will use throughout my 10 week plan. To get started, we need to weigh ourselves, take before pics and take measurements. I know that I start and stop so many times, but I really want to stick to this. I kinda feel like if I could stick to KK, virtually cheat free for 4.5 months, surely, I can stick to this plan for 10 weeks. I am not going to say that I will eat perfect for 10 weeks, but I will say that the plan is to put my all into it and to be successful. I would really like to be toned and in shape for shorts weather this summer. It is so important to me to be in good shape for my daughters. Having 2 daughters has really motivated me to get my act together in so many ways. I wonder if I had two 2 sons or even 1 boy and 1 girl would it be the same? I dunno. We don't plan to have anymore children, so it's likely that I will never know, but I do know one thing, those girls are the most precious things in the world to me and I want the best for them.
Buffmother calls it, Living with a LEGACY perspective and I just love the sound of that. In her book, she has an awesome example of how the decisions I make can have an effect not only on my daughters, but my grandchildren and generations after that. Physically, spiritually and emotionally the decisions that I make can have an effect on them. Thinking back, I really cannot remember my mother ever working out. That is something that kinda started with me. But working out consistently and being in good shape can be something that I pass on to my daughters and they can pass on to their and on and on, simply because I set the example. That is just so kewl to me and something that resonates with me on a very deep level. That is why I take it so seriously with the girls. I'm not perfect so I obviously can't do everything right, but realizing how my decisions affect the girls can be a real motivator to do my best.
Thanx Mya and Mia! Mommy loves you so much! You gave Mommy her life back. :)
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Cold and Snowy Day
Well, for the past week, the plan has been to get back on plan and while I started out strong, the evening took over. Yeah, I started the morning with cheese and for lunch had some turkey and cauliflower casserole, but dinner ended up turkey with dressing and pasta. Certainly not Atkins friendly. Well, here I am rationalizing and came to this deduction -- Why? Okay, I plan on starting Buffmother's contest on 3/10, why start Atkins now? Originally my thoughts was to get me back to 170's and start from that weight. But then when I thought of it more, I thought that would be stupid because as soon as I start Buffmother's plan, which includes complex carbs, I would start gaining again. That would be depressing to start a new plan and start gaining. So, since I seem to be at my old set point, I will just start there.
I love Buffmother's plan. It really is clean eating and eating to fuel my body versus eating just to lose. I really hope to start and stick to this plan to attain the body that I desire. It is a 10 week contest and we are divided into teams. I have been working for the past week to get everything organized down to a science. I want to plan out every meal, the times I eat, my workouts, the time I work out. I've got quite a bit of it done, but still have work to do. Planning has been a major part of my journey thus far and I think it will continue to be important to complete it. I really like Buffmother's simple approach and the fact that it is pretty much clean eating, it resonates with me. Don't get me wrong, I KNOW that I am going to miss my Taco Bakes, Cauliflower Casseroles and cream sauces. Oh, how I love it! I don't think I have ever eaten as well as I do on Atkins, but that is not the way that I truly want to eat, nor is it the menu that I want the girls to grow accustomed to. Now is the time for me to make changes in my family's diet so that the girls will be accustomed to eating healthier and cleaner. Hey, I can only try and hope for success. If I fail the first time, I will just have to dust myself off and try again. That's just the way that it is.
Being that is is De-Clutter month, I have some work to do before I go to bed tonight. We left work early today due to the snow, but still the day went by soooo fast. It was pretty scary but fortunately, I made it home safely and the girls nor my hubby had to go out in it today. Hopefully the snow has stopped and the streets will be clear by tomorrow morning.
I love Buffmother's plan. It really is clean eating and eating to fuel my body versus eating just to lose. I really hope to start and stick to this plan to attain the body that I desire. It is a 10 week contest and we are divided into teams. I have been working for the past week to get everything organized down to a science. I want to plan out every meal, the times I eat, my workouts, the time I work out. I've got quite a bit of it done, but still have work to do. Planning has been a major part of my journey thus far and I think it will continue to be important to complete it. I really like Buffmother's simple approach and the fact that it is pretty much clean eating, it resonates with me. Don't get me wrong, I KNOW that I am going to miss my Taco Bakes, Cauliflower Casseroles and cream sauces. Oh, how I love it! I don't think I have ever eaten as well as I do on Atkins, but that is not the way that I truly want to eat, nor is it the menu that I want the girls to grow accustomed to. Now is the time for me to make changes in my family's diet so that the girls will be accustomed to eating healthier and cleaner. Hey, I can only try and hope for success. If I fail the first time, I will just have to dust myself off and try again. That's just the way that it is.
Being that is is De-Clutter month, I have some work to do before I go to bed tonight. We left work early today due to the snow, but still the day went by soooo fast. It was pretty scary but fortunately, I made it home safely and the girls nor my hubby had to go out in it today. Hopefully the snow has stopped and the streets will be clear by tomorrow morning.
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Dr. Jekyll vs Ms. Hyde
So far the month is going okay. Given, it is only the 2nd day. The one thing that really bothers me about this PMS thing is I feel like I have a split personality. I feel all over the place and unable to stay on track. I really do feel that if I start making better choices with the foods that I eat, the times that I eat and exercise regularly, things will improve. I don't really feel that I have any depression issues, so I think that if I have a set plan in place and stick to it, I can lower or possibly eliminate the symptoms that are plaguing me right now. Sure does make you feel old. I am not so sure that it is a matter of age, but maybe the fact that I have had children. According to what I have read, having a baby, especially MULTIPLES really does a doosie on a woman's hormones. Well, I should guess so. Plus, as I have always said, between having the girls and losing the weight in the extreme way that I did, my poor bod has been through alot in a short period of time and has to be out of balance.
I really didn't take any vitamins on the regular basis while I was following KK. All my mind was focused on was being cheat free and losing the weight and right now, my body is telling me all about that decision. So, like I said, I am going to try to get on the stick with my diet and exercise, taking supplements to assist where my diet may be lacking and really truly taking control. I know it is going to take awhile. Several months at least, but I've got to do it. My family means waaaay to much to me. Plus, I am miserable right now. I don't feel good physically. I feel negative and completely spent. Typically though, I have a very strong mind and when I am determined, I will push through no matter what. So that same devotion and strength that I had several months back during KK is what I am going to have to tap into to get myself healthy again.
My experiences over the past two years along with all that I am learning about my body, things are just falling into place and making sense. All I have to do is work with my body and things will be so much smoother. The thing that bugged me about KK was that it went around the natural way of the body works to make weight loss happen. It may have worked, but clearly not good for my body. I don't want to go down that path ever again! Fortunately, I am young and should be able to bounce back from that whole ordeal. I really feel that if I work along with my body in regards to my diet, exercise and supplements, things will get back on track naturally. I'll say in 3 months or so, I should be able to tell if things are turning around. So, I guess we will see in June!
I really didn't take any vitamins on the regular basis while I was following KK. All my mind was focused on was being cheat free and losing the weight and right now, my body is telling me all about that decision. So, like I said, I am going to try to get on the stick with my diet and exercise, taking supplements to assist where my diet may be lacking and really truly taking control. I know it is going to take awhile. Several months at least, but I've got to do it. My family means waaaay to much to me. Plus, I am miserable right now. I don't feel good physically. I feel negative and completely spent. Typically though, I have a very strong mind and when I am determined, I will push through no matter what. So that same devotion and strength that I had several months back during KK is what I am going to have to tap into to get myself healthy again.
My experiences over the past two years along with all that I am learning about my body, things are just falling into place and making sense. All I have to do is work with my body and things will be so much smoother. The thing that bugged me about KK was that it went around the natural way of the body works to make weight loss happen. It may have worked, but clearly not good for my body. I don't want to go down that path ever again! Fortunately, I am young and should be able to bounce back from that whole ordeal. I really feel that if I work along with my body in regards to my diet, exercise and supplements, things will get back on track naturally. I'll say in 3 months or so, I should be able to tell if things are turning around. So, I guess we will see in June!
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