Slaaaaacker!

My goodness, I never knew that I could be such a slacker. I went off plan and a few days has turned into a few weeks. Oy! I had no idea. Part of my problem is that I was planning on starting BFL and trying to do research and fit everything in and in the meantime, absolutely NOTHING was getting done. Very frustrating because in the meantime, I am getting fat all over again. In normal off plan fashion, I have gained like 20 lbs. I can't believe it, but when I got on the scale, I am 185 lbs again! That is the reason that I had originally decided to get down to 136 because I gain so terribly when I get off plan. I think it is great that the pounds come off so well when you are low carbing, but the weight comes back with a fierceness when you go off plan. I think it is terrible that it does that. It IS real weight too. I can definitely see the mass in my thighs. I am definitely wearing my fat clothes now.

The difference between when I have lost weight in the past and now is that I know that I am getting back on plan and I know that I am going to lose the weight and reach my goal. Only thing is...Is this going to be the rest of my life? Maintaining? I mean, do I have to do the off plan GAIN on plan lose the rest of my life? Man, that is a terrible cycle to have to be on. Especially when I gain so much. Sometimes you just want to be able to eat without thinking about it. If it is low carb or not. I am definitely going to try to help my daughters stay slim. Once you get fat, I think it is a constant battle and I really hate that it has to be this way.

In any event, I am not giving up. I am not pleased at this weight and I am not going to stop until I reach my goal. Yeah, I slacked quite a bit, but I don't believe that it is anything that cannot be reversed. Tomorrow is February 1st and I plan to get restarted. It is very early in the new year and I still feel that my Bassett Body is a possibility, but I definitely have to get on the stick.

I have been through so many ways of thinking, but this is where I am at as of today. I am going to do a type of Cycle down to 136. Yep, I am back at an actual weight again vs. jeans size. I just gain so horribly, that I think that 136 I should be pretty safe. Anyways, I will do an Atkins/Stillman's cycle until I reach my goal. After that I will follow the 5-4-3-2-1 approach from Buffmother and start truly buffing. Oh yeah, Buffmother is one of my finds since I have been away. She is a mother of 4 and she looks wonderful. She even has a set of twins in there. She really has some neat ideas and inspires me so much to push forward so that I can reach my goals. If she can do it, so can I and since she has done so much of the work, I just need to follow it.

I am thinking that it will take me around 4-6 months to get to 136. If I was following KK, it would more than likely be sooner, but I just can't go down that road again. Well, tomorrow it begins. It all begins. Slaaaaacker no more!