I was reflecting on all that I did in order to lose those 75 pounds on KK. I literally starved myself and when I entered the contest I weighed a whopping 212 lbs!!! That took up so much of my life and it was all for nothing. It was inconceivable to me that I could actually gain so much weight back after all that I had been through with KK. Low carb has just consumed so much of my life and for what? I knew a long time ago that I wasn't going to do that for life. What - I'm never going to eat another french fry or a piece of cake? Sorry, turnip fries, don't cut it! But since I lost so well, I stayed with it.
The Seattle Sutton meals are truly a blessing in my life right now. I'm thinking I am finally going to figure this thing out and repair my metabolism. Initially when I started the contest and lost those unbelievable 17 lbs in 2 weeks, I was so very excited!!! I thought that I had finally fixed my metabolism and that I would be able to lose on a plan other than low carb. Imagine when just a week later - NOTHING!!! I could not lose beyond that 17 lbs. No matter how much I worked out and drank water - 195 was still floating around. I was getting rather frustrated and then I thought back to my old friend - low carb. It was calling out to me saying "We are good old friends. I've worked for you in the past, why turn your back on me now?" So with that old friend whispering in my ear and the knowledge that it has ALWAYS worked in the past, I jumped back to the low carb game. It was the only way that I knew that I could stay in the competition. Well, it got me through. I did a modified KK and dropped 9 lbs in 5 days. That put me within safe range for the contest for that week. I knew that I DID NOT want to do this again, so I want to go back to the Seattle Sutton meals. Well, within a matter of days, I was back up to around 195 and again the scale would not budge. So, this time I decided to do Atkins and I had 7 days and I lost 9 lbs, but that only showed up as a 4 lb loss at the weigh in and it was not enough. That put me in the bottom and I was up for elimination and of course I was eliminated. Blech!
So being part of the contest definitely had me on a roller coaster. While I did not want to low carb, I felt like I had to in order to stay in the competition. It was the very thing that I did not want to do. But now that I am no longer in the contest, I don't have to worry about weighing in and all of that, so now I have the time to figure it all out. Plus since all of the meals are provided, I know exactly what I am eating - calories, fat and everything, so that puts me in a very good place for success.
So, I am going to keep working out and tracking everything that I eat. Before the contest ended, Angel bought me a weight loss journal to track everything that I eat. It is really a neat little book. I plan to track everything!!! I feel so much more on the ball than I have in a long time. I may actually figure out this thing that has evaded me so long - THE RIGHT WAY TO EAT and NOT low carb!
While I definitely wanted to win the contest and if I was still in it, it is probable that I would have, I still wouldn't have learned anything about my body. More than likely I would have had to continue low carbing and I would probably be in a looney bin by the end. I truly think that I will be happier eating carbs and have more energy. Michelle and Angel always said that I needed to FUEL my workouts. I start my Barry's Bootcamp week again next week and I am hoping to see some real strength gains. I'll see soon.
Also, the gross drink blend from the body cleanse was not so bad today. I decided to use grape juice. Wow, that was all the change in the WORLD! Water was just plain nasty, but with 4-6 ounces of grape juice, I was able to down it in a matter of seconds! Woo Hoo! Now, the pills are still gross, but I can handle that for 5 more days!
Oh and regarding my blog. I know I had been away for awhile, but I just couldn't stand the new look. This look has definitely been home for me, so I had to change it back! :)
So all is good in the neighborhood! I will just keep on keepin on!
