Doing the Atkins Shuffle

Wow, I am just loving this. As of this morning, I am down another 1.2 lbs!!! So now I am at 181.2. Knocking at the door of the 170's. I am so excited. I just hope that things continue going so well. Calling it the Atkins shuffle because this weight is just movin on out! :) Other than that today has been a pretty sourpuss day. I just get so frustrated with Mya. I hate getting that frustrated with her, but today I just sat in the middle of the floor and cried. She just gets into everything. I don't even want to think about the disgusting dirty diaper episode the other day. It's just too much and to now know that I don't even get to go anywhere at the end of the month is just too much. I am just so tired. I really needed the few days, but alas it is not going to happen. It's just so hard because I work really hard to be a good mother and a good wife, but a person can only take so much. I feel that anger coming back again and I just can't put my family through that again. We've gotta figure something out.

The bad part is I had such a nice night last night. This Friday was "My Friday", so I decided to hang out last night with a few sisters from my hall. We met at Applebee's and had a really nice time. I ordered some hot wings and really enjoyed it. We picked Applebee's because it is the type of place that everyone can order whatever works for them. Like I said, I ordered hot wings, one ordered salmon and rice and the other ordered steak with a baked potato. All of us enjoyed our food and after eating we sat around and talked for a few hours. It was really nice and now that I think about it, it has been a long long time since I did that. I haven't had the opportunity to hang out seems like since the girls have been born. Maybe that is my problem, I need to have more social interaction and get out. It looks like going on more than 1 day excursion is out of the question for awhile, at least until the girls get older, so Stan and I are going to have to take a date night out for ourselves EVERY MONTH without fail. We need to go out and have a good time. Make a full evening of it. Many at the hall have volunteered to watch the girls while we go out, so it's there, we just have to actually do it. I think that is going to be really, really important for our sanity and to keep our marriage strong. Stan is so sweet, he knew I was very stressed out today, so he brought me a rose to my job. He is such a nice guy. I consider myself fortunate to be married to him. :)

Last nite, I mentioned to one of the sisters that we were going to be moving in the next 3-6 months, but interested in doing a lease-purchase. She said, "Oh a house next door to me was a for sale and now they have put it up for lease". So I followed her to her house after dinner last night and looked at the property. Given it was 10:30 at night and dark, but what I saw so far was nice. It has a nice sunroom on the back that just seems soo awesome. Okay fast forward....I just spoke with the realtor and this house will not work. We need a bedroom in the LL and this does not have one. So bummer, it would have nice to have neighbors next door that we know and also the SUNROOM! But oh well. That is not the house for us, but there will be others. There are TONS of homes for sale in the area that we want to live. We will get there and get the house that works for us!

So anyways, I am still focused and looking forwarding to reaching this high goal that I have set for myself. My mother mentioned to me yesterday that mid-june is our family renuion. I was thinking that I could have quite a bit of my weight off by then, especially if I am able to come close to my goal this month. I hate that I am kicking and scraping to get back into the 170's. It's so depressing, but I guess the main thing is to continue until I get there and pass it. I didn't get a chance to workout today or yesterday, but I plan to get up before the meeting and get my workout in tomorrow.

So, I say "Adieu" to this day. I have emailed all of my fellow weight loss net buds and have heard from none of them. I hope that everyone is okay. Morton, Miguel, Tawn, Karen and Mary, if you read this and you are out there, GIVE ME A YELL!