Days Long Past

Well, I think the days of me being able to eat what I want and do what I want are OVER! The past few days have been awful. I have what I think is a cold or flu, but now, it is something different. MY SKIN LITERALLY HURTS!!! It's throbbing. I told my husband that it feels like little daggers are stabbing me. The sheets hurt on my skin. I mentioned it to my mom just now and she said Fibromyalgia. I typed my skin hurting on the internet and one of the first things that came up was Fibromyalgia. My husband doesn't want me to self-diagnose, but I really feel like this may be what is going on. I have been down in the bed since Friday. It's been rough. Fortunately, my husband has been wonderful and taking care of the girls, but tomorrow, he has to go back to work, so I have to get better. I will call my dr.'s office and try to set up an appt. for Thursday. Hopefully, the symptoms will have abated by them. If so, I will cancel the doctor's appt. If it is still a problem, I will go to the appt. I really hope this isn't the problem. Hopefully it is just a bad cold or something that is affecting my body differently. Only thing is some of the symptoms like body aches and sleep problems and pms and fatigue are all problems that I have been dealing with lately and they are symptoms of Fibro.

I have been dealing with alot of stress lately and maybe this is my bodies way to tell me I have to chill. Hopefully that is all that it is. Part of me just wants to say - Buck Up and Deal With It! It's just really hard. I have just had so many things thrown at me lately. I just want to be a good wife and mother. That's what I really want.

I really think that the stress has not helped one bit, but KK I think messed up things a bit. I really do. I am so glad that I lost the weight, but so many things have been happening lately. I mean, I am only 32 for crying out loud. Never sick. I've never even been in the hospital with the exception of having the girls. I have really got to take better care of my body and nurse it back to health. From what I read, the PMS and the Fibro can be helped by controlling my diet and my guess is the needs are similar. I've really got to get this under control for my health's sake. The days of eating junk and whatever I want I think are over. I really do. I want to eat better anyways, but now I think that I HAVE to! That is the way I am anyways, I only get things in order when I have no choice. Other than that, it doesn't get done.

I promised my hubby, I wouldn't do anymore research to try to self-diagnose myself, so I won't be doing that. I will just try to get to the doctor on Thursday. I really hope this is all over by then because it really is a painful and quite uncomfortable feeling. I can barely lift up my daughters. We will see.